Scarlet Bigonias and a touch of the BLues

So some may say I am many things but in my heart of hearts I am what I am. I Have over these past weeks forgotten what makes me a unique person. I have lost my way and now I have found what makes me happy again. I have rediscovered my hippy roots. My hair is long and my style is what it is. I am a Dead Head. But the kind that has to hold down a job and be productive so I don’t smoke but might take something else. So here I am on a little raft in the middle of the sea and surrounded by many folks who like rap and such type of music. Well here I am on desolation row and I need to find some like hippies. I think I need some tshirts to show my style to say a lot without saying anything. I avoid drugs but love the people in the culture. Some of my best friends have come from such situations and I need to find them her. I am sure there are some here its impossible to imagine I am the only one. So over the next few weeks I am going to look for signs of the people I am in search of. So with the realization that I am a hip type person I must remember that I am also a alcohol free person. Its like a mind fuck though. To be me is to consume alcohol its been a part of my life for quite a while. So am I being true to me if I don’t drink at all? I know I was not an alcoholic but I did consume quite a bit of alcohol. So by not having any am I still the same person I was before I came here. Its a question that is best left to the persons with the white coats. But for me this is too good of a gig to blow it by blowing into a tube. I must remember that no what my mind twists to be alright I must avoid the hooch at least for the time I am here. I cannot afford to go home. To many people know I am here and Its not worth it to go back for something so stupid. I need to be smart and above all that. It is weird though. All my hero’s are drinkers smokers and evil doers. Its odd that I am living an exact opposite of the ideals they instill. Hmmm… So I thought this battery was supposed to last like 7 hours. Its fully charged and is about to die. I think its stupid. Well I dunno.. I don’t think anything is wrong with it but… geeze I really do not like technology sometimes. Its getting at times to be simpler and with that of a lesser quality… ghhh…well I am done with this for the moment I feel that the context of this text is moot… ciao