Breath of fresh air

So Its like Month one plus some days and I have found a new awakening of sorts… I have been more and more spiritual lately but not in the typical Catholic way..I am beginning to have curiosity is eastern religions specifically Buddhism. At the beginning of this adventure I decided to take the Teaching of Buddha from the nightstand from the hotel.. Mostly because it was something Ihad never seen before but also because I thought It would be an interesting way to spend some time.. well as time here has passed I have managed to be distracted and this book basically became crammed between my mattress and my wall. And there it still sits.. so why am I mentioning this and what is the meaning.. Ok so here it is.. I was visiting a friend and we were talking and I found amongst some clutter a book.. The title is odd “Girl seeks Bliss” Zen and the art of Modern Life Maintenance. So its basically book for women but I am still reading it and am coming to a lot of interesting realizations.. Its also teaching me a few things for instance did you know that at the same age of 24 Richard Gere also found Buddha.. I dunno kinda cool perhaps the age of 24 is the year one finds them selves or strikes out on there own path.. Its also said in Neil Youngs sound Old man. Old Man Take a look at your life I am a lot like you, old man take a look at your life 24 and there is so much more living life in a paradise that was only built for two…Seriously This is really cool perhaps the 24 was the ideal number.. Look at my life I am living in a paradise and it built for a lot more than two..So as I am reading this book it is talking a lot about spirituality and the such and really I am becoming more interested and I think it was meant that I found both of these books like my life was meant to include them.. Everything happens for a reason and perhaps this is just another.. Something that was stated later in the book really caught my eye.. It says “ New Buddha groupies are smart, slightly rebellious, Happiness seeking Humanitarians in their twenties and thirties who Are looking for spirituality through righteousness, and peace of mind without illusions.. Cumon is that me or what.. I think it hits the nail very close to the head.. I am thinking this would be the intended audience of the book so perhaps it Is not that of a coincidence at all.. Either way I am super pumped and really think this whole zen way of being can become a good way to relax. I really want to learn a lot about this religion and way of being I think it has a lot to offer me.. particularly when it comes to my line of work.. now I love what I do.. but it is a stressful type of job. So if I can still fill my passion at the same time I am able to be collected I think I will be much more successful when it comes to daily kitchen life.. also I think it would be a great jumping off point for my Masters classes.. I would have a reason to study in India/China..I could eat and write and meditate it would be an all encompassing education. I think it would not only give me a great sense of pride but also be humbling and emotional. So though it is in the Buddhist teaching that one must live in the moment for it is the only moment that matters I must think slightly into the future.. Now I acknowledge that things may change and that is ok and up to the universe to dictate however, If I keep this job and save money and stay debt free over the next few years perhaps one and a half I would have enough revenue to fund an academic trip to Thailand, or some such place to study this along with the cuisine and what it means..I already have some insight into the eating of these people but it would be amazing to really grasp the knowledge and be able to write scholastically of the topic even perhaps teach a class which would be quite amazing indeed.. I think something that I would be proud to tell my eventual children of…” If you knew what I know about the power of giving you would not let a single meal pass without sharing it in someway” That is soo true. I want that particular lifestyle.. Perhaps communistic in a way.. everyone shares and chips into the main goal.. I would love to live that way.. I have a many thing I want to do in life but a limited time to do it so basically it comes down to when and how.. Here and now is once again the answer..I am young and anything can happen in my life so why not grab the bull by the horns and just do something momentous with life..Not that I am not..I am sitting in the bunk of my cruise ship..That is a lot more than many people can say..I am taking charge of my life and making money..though not a lot some money and saving up for something special be it schooling in the future or be it a most interesting traveling experience..I think I must take time for adventure before I get too old..My roommate is 34 or 35 he is a great person and had seemingly done a great many thing in his life..I want to also share in that I want to be able to say Yes I did that too and you know it really was special..I do not want to say something along the lines of ohh that tour bus was nice I am sure glad I paid the extra 29.99 to get the audio tour..no that’s not it..I want to explore on my own and do it by my terms ..the only audio tour I want is the one created by the natural setting..the grass crunching between my toes..the tide raising up to rocks and crashing when it comes in and babbling as it retreats into the sea. I want to listen to the squeaking of shoes on a freshly polished marble floor. I want to experience life and I want it all now..I am able to wait I know I am but I know I want it all to happen to me and it would be even greater to find someone to share it with..However some of the best adventures I have faced I have faced alone and I am sure I will continue to find this to be true..